Falling away

[o***@aol.com]

Hello, I haven't been here in a few years I think and forums/groups are
the only happiness it seems. I'm a miserable guy in a miserable
relationship that has been ending over the past 10 years. I'm a 35yo
BP1 Mixed with some other stuff and I take meds. I've been in a
relationship that has finally come to a critical point and I'm here
again till I die successfully. I've lived with my girlfriend for 10
years and now she is moving to Western North Carolina. A few months
ago, we went to visit her relatives in WNC and I liked the people - I
currently live in Miami and I want to rip my guts out having SMI- and
thats why I want to leave as well. Big decisions here. Do I leave her
now? Or, Do I leave her after moving there. I'm an actor and musician,
but my illness has reduced me to rubble. I can't look at any films I've
done because that person died. So, I figured I could move to a more
peacefull place and become a studio/solo musician and include writting
to the mix. Nowadays, I am an online sim racer and have won many races,
so if this were to ever take off as a real sport- I'd persue it. I've
been on disability for many years and I just can't be in such a "Hard"
relationship anymore. My girlfriend is established and I think she
needs to move on because she still thinks till this day that I can just
go down to some busy building filled with insane Latinos- and I'm
Latino- and pull permits on some construction deal. She has a high
position as is going to ditch her job because she's had it with Miami
as well. So, I'm leaving my home city and I'd like some advice with
what some of you have done in this kind of cituation. I beg though,
please don't ask me about my relationship beacuse I absolutely despise
it and only a doctor could fix anything thats left. Thanks.

[Tom King]

Man, life has a reason or so they say!



Before making your decision, may I suggest that you looking at what is going
wrong in your relationship and of that, what you can take responsibility for
(I no to mean that you causes the problem, but you can do soothing to
improve the situation).



Next look at what hardships you bring to the relationship - if your bp - we
know you are not the best it managing relationships or being compassioned or
caring for loved ones.



Lastly, consider some kind of marriage counseling from either a minister or
a counseling professional.



Remember for many of us, or reasoning skills are off while depressed or
manic.



Good luck.



/Stephen

Post by o***@aol.com
Hello, I haven't been here in a few years I think and forums/groups are
the only happiness it seems. I'm a miserable guy in a miserable
relationship that has been ending over the past 10 years. I'm a 35yo
BP1 Mixed with some other stuff and I take meds. I've been in a
relationship that has finally come to a critical point and I'm here
again till I die successfully. I've lived with my girlfriend for 10
years and now she is moving to Western North Carolina. A few months
ago, we went to visit her relatives in WNC and I liked the people - I
currently live in Miami and I want to rip my guts out having SMI- and
thats why I want to leave as well. Big decisions here. Do I leave her
now? Or, Do I leave her after moving there. I'm an actor and musician,
but my illness has reduced me to rubble. I can't look at any films I've
done because that person died. So, I figured I could move to a more
peacefull place and become a studio/solo musician and include writting
to the mix. Nowadays, I am an online sim racer and have won many races,
so if this were to ever take off as a real sport- I'd persue it. I've
been on disability for many years and I just can't be in such a "Hard"
relationship anymore. My girlfriend is established and I think she
needs to move on because she still thinks till this day that I can just
go down to some busy building filled with insane Latinos- and I'm
Latino- and pull permits on some construction deal. She has a high
position as is going to ditch her job because she's had it with Miami
as well. So, I'm leaving my home city and I'd like some advice with
what some of you have done in this kind of cituation. I beg though,
please don't ask me about my relationship beacuse I absolutely despise
it and only a doctor could fix anything thats left. Thanks.